Dear Hailey,
These days go by so fast I can't keep up with them. I miss seeing you every night and knowing that you are only a room away. The good news is that I am going to pick you up this Friday and spend another day with you!.
I got in touch with a lawyer today and scheduled an appointment to make sure that I can defend myself should Mommy and I get a divorce. I really don't want it to come to that, but I need to be prepared. I want to have either full custody, or at least joint custody in order to see you on a regular basis.
In the meantime, I am still working and learning new things about sales, and networking. Hopefully I can make a lot of money real soon and buy a house for our family or at least for you to play in when we get together.
I wanted to continue to write everyday, but when I forget I will try to make up for it. I look forward to playing with you tomorrow!
Love,
Daddy
Thursday, June 28, 2012
Tuesday, June 26, 2012
Missed you today!
Dear Hailey,
I came home today to get the rest of my things. Truth be told I was surprised to see Mommy and our friend Wendy there. I thought she wasn't going to be there when I was for a while so we could avoid a fight. I had Papa come over to help me get the couches, but Mommy decided it was a good idea to start trouble again. She tried to demand that I pay a couple of bills and I told her that I wasn't going to because they were in her name.I was not trying to hurt Mommy because I have paid everything else that I said I would and these bills were very small, not even totaling $50. I will have paid $700 towards bills when it is all done.
Mommy got really mad at me and then went to scream at Papa and I thought that was rude. I know she hurt his feelings and I felt bad because I didn't want to put him in the middle of that. Just like I don't want you to be in the middle of that.
At this time I thought you were in your bed taking a nap, but you weren't even there. As I was getting ready to leave, I asked Mommy where you were and she wouldn't tell me. Its my job to protect you and know you are safe at all times and when she didn't tell me I got very mad.
Hailey, Mommy is going to try to say that I haven't been there for you or don't care about you. THAT IS ABSOLUTELY NOT TRUE!
The truth is I have been busy trying to secure a place for myself and making plans for us should Mommy and me get back together. I know that I haven't seen you or heard from you in a couple of days, but from this time forward because of the way your Mother is acting, I am afraid of not being able to see you very much or if we get a divorce having bad things happen to me.I know you were at Court and Janelle's house earlier today at about 630, but haven't heard about you since. I sent Mommy a text message saying that I wanted to know where you are at all times and now I mean it.
I have been too relaxed and foolish about this whole situation with your Mother and now she is playing hardball. I need to protect myself from legal action and ALWAYS put you first.
I promise things will get better soon. I hope you understand that is very difficult for me and I'm sure for your mom as well.
Love,
Daddy
I came home today to get the rest of my things. Truth be told I was surprised to see Mommy and our friend Wendy there. I thought she wasn't going to be there when I was for a while so we could avoid a fight. I had Papa come over to help me get the couches, but Mommy decided it was a good idea to start trouble again. She tried to demand that I pay a couple of bills and I told her that I wasn't going to because they were in her name.I was not trying to hurt Mommy because I have paid everything else that I said I would and these bills were very small, not even totaling $50. I will have paid $700 towards bills when it is all done.
Mommy got really mad at me and then went to scream at Papa and I thought that was rude. I know she hurt his feelings and I felt bad because I didn't want to put him in the middle of that. Just like I don't want you to be in the middle of that.
At this time I thought you were in your bed taking a nap, but you weren't even there. As I was getting ready to leave, I asked Mommy where you were and she wouldn't tell me. Its my job to protect you and know you are safe at all times and when she didn't tell me I got very mad.
Hailey, Mommy is going to try to say that I haven't been there for you or don't care about you. THAT IS ABSOLUTELY NOT TRUE!
The truth is I have been busy trying to secure a place for myself and making plans for us should Mommy and me get back together. I know that I haven't seen you or heard from you in a couple of days, but from this time forward because of the way your Mother is acting, I am afraid of not being able to see you very much or if we get a divorce having bad things happen to me.I know you were at Court and Janelle's house earlier today at about 630, but haven't heard about you since. I sent Mommy a text message saying that I wanted to know where you are at all times and now I mean it.
I have been too relaxed and foolish about this whole situation with your Mother and now she is playing hardball. I need to protect myself from legal action and ALWAYS put you first.
I promise things will get better soon. I hope you understand that is very difficult for me and I'm sure for your mom as well.
Love,
Daddy
Monday, June 25, 2012
A Great Sunday
Dear Hailey,
I had so much fun yesterday honey! I picked you up from church and you looked so cute in your little dress. I know how you like going to the nursery. It looks like a lot of fun.
I picked you up and we had fun singing in the car, you were laughing hysterically as I said "Baby, Baby, Baby, Woooot" You copied me and started singing it yourself. Then you fell asleep on the way to my friend's house.
When we got there I placed you on the couch; it is really soft. When the kitty started meowing he woke you up and you were happy to see him and started to chase him. I thought it was cute, but you couldn't get him. We had lunch right after that. Sorry that you didn't like the Spaghetti O's that I made, it must have been your first time. You seemed to like the yogurt and the banana I gave you, and of course the pizza for dinner.
We played outside as you rode on Savannah's toys and played with her dolls. I know you liked the dandelion's because you tried so hard to blow the seeds off of them but couldn't quite get them. We also popped the heads off the other dandelions just like I used to when I was a boy. After a while when it got hot we went inside.
You loved being able to play with the toys. You took apart the Dora puzzle and I put it back together. We played with the blocks and the balls. It was hysterical watching you try to catch them as the air pushed them up towards your face and the slide rolled them down. (I wish I had a picture because my words can't justify this). Then you played with the kitchen set and the plastic lawnmower.
We watched Dora and Elmo on TV as I was dozing off you kept wanting me to wake up. "Wake up Daddy" you pleaded, and it must have worked because I did just that. You chased the cat a little more and it was time to go.
I wish I didn't have to bring you back, but until Mommy and Daddy can get along this is how it is going to have to be. We will have another good day like this again, I promise!
Love, Daddy
I had so much fun yesterday honey! I picked you up from church and you looked so cute in your little dress. I know how you like going to the nursery. It looks like a lot of fun.
I picked you up and we had fun singing in the car, you were laughing hysterically as I said "Baby, Baby, Baby, Woooot" You copied me and started singing it yourself. Then you fell asleep on the way to my friend's house.
When we got there I placed you on the couch; it is really soft. When the kitty started meowing he woke you up and you were happy to see him and started to chase him. I thought it was cute, but you couldn't get him. We had lunch right after that. Sorry that you didn't like the Spaghetti O's that I made, it must have been your first time. You seemed to like the yogurt and the banana I gave you, and of course the pizza for dinner.
We played outside as you rode on Savannah's toys and played with her dolls. I know you liked the dandelion's because you tried so hard to blow the seeds off of them but couldn't quite get them. We also popped the heads off the other dandelions just like I used to when I was a boy. After a while when it got hot we went inside.
You loved being able to play with the toys. You took apart the Dora puzzle and I put it back together. We played with the blocks and the balls. It was hysterical watching you try to catch them as the air pushed them up towards your face and the slide rolled them down. (I wish I had a picture because my words can't justify this). Then you played with the kitchen set and the plastic lawnmower.
We watched Dora and Elmo on TV as I was dozing off you kept wanting me to wake up. "Wake up Daddy" you pleaded, and it must have worked because I did just that. You chased the cat a little more and it was time to go.
I wish I didn't have to bring you back, but until Mommy and Daddy can get along this is how it is going to have to be. We will have another good day like this again, I promise!
Love, Daddy
Saturday, June 23, 2012
A good day
Dear Hailey,
Today was a great day Hailey! I am sorry I didn't wake up in time to see you, but I needed to get some rest because with all of the stuff going on I haven't been able to sleep. I also had to spend some time fixing the drain at Frank's bathtub drain. That was a dirty project, but it was worth it because now the shower is not gross.
I came home today Hailey, to get some stuff while moving out. Mommy called me and put me on speaker phone as she said I could come. She must be scared that something will happen if we are all there together. I got the stuff and left.
I decided I wanted to cook some sausage with Frank's grill today so that was good. I also finished a couple of projects for work. Hailey my business is looking great. I will make another $550 on Monday, even though only some money will advance, but I am starting to make a living. When Mommy sees this she will understand why I didn't want to have a job. WFG is much more fun.
I look forward to seeing you tomorrow. Mommy says I can pick you up after church and we will be able to play all day long! Hopefully, I will be able to do that much more often.
I love you.
Love,
Daddy
Today was a great day Hailey! I am sorry I didn't wake up in time to see you, but I needed to get some rest because with all of the stuff going on I haven't been able to sleep. I also had to spend some time fixing the drain at Frank's bathtub drain. That was a dirty project, but it was worth it because now the shower is not gross.
I came home today Hailey, to get some stuff while moving out. Mommy called me and put me on speaker phone as she said I could come. She must be scared that something will happen if we are all there together. I got the stuff and left.
I decided I wanted to cook some sausage with Frank's grill today so that was good. I also finished a couple of projects for work. Hailey my business is looking great. I will make another $550 on Monday, even though only some money will advance, but I am starting to make a living. When Mommy sees this she will understand why I didn't want to have a job. WFG is much more fun.
I look forward to seeing you tomorrow. Mommy says I can pick you up after church and we will be able to play all day long! Hopefully, I will be able to do that much more often.
I love you.
Love,
Daddy
Friday, June 22, 2012
Strange Days
Dear Hailey,
Sorry I didn't write yesterday Hailey I became very busy and it was too late.
I had a good day in my business, but unfortunately not at home. Hailey I wanted to seek advice from a lawyer, but mommy found the same firm and they couldn't help me. They said it was a conflict of interest. I have made a couple of other calls and hopefully I will be able to find a person who can help me keep you close to me.
I went home today to both pick some stuff up and see you as well. Mommy was mad at me again and wanted to tell me what to do. This is a big reason why our family has problems. Neither Mommy nor Daddy should ever demand the other to do anything, we should only ask nicely and make requests based on how we can help each other, and always with love. I am sorry to say that I am just as guilty as she is, but today didn't have to go down like this.
I found you sleeping today and I told Mommy that I was going to wake you up to spend time with you. When you saw me you were happy. You love me and said you wanted to go with Daddy.
I started to dress you and find some clothes but Mommy was mad that I messed up the drawers. She said some mean words and demanded that I fold the clothes, I am sorry, but this made me a little mad.
Hailey I promise I wasn't mad at you, and I didn't curse or do anything bad to Mommy. When we fight it gets ugly and she took you away from me. She got you dressed and I told her that I wanted to take you (for a little while). When Mommy stormed out the door and brought you to the new neighbor's house, I had no choice but to call the police.
I just wanted to be with you, but Mommy wouldn't have it. I ended up leaving without seeing you or saying goodbye. I'm sorry darling, it wasn't supposed to be like that.
I told Mommy that she isn't going to bring you to California and she is trying to do that. She says bad things about me and I hope not to you. If she does, don't ever believe them. I love you with all my heart.
I said this would get worse before it gets better, but I really wish you weren't caught in the middle. I love you and hope to see you again real soon!
Love,
Daddy
Sorry I didn't write yesterday Hailey I became very busy and it was too late.
I had a good day in my business, but unfortunately not at home. Hailey I wanted to seek advice from a lawyer, but mommy found the same firm and they couldn't help me. They said it was a conflict of interest. I have made a couple of other calls and hopefully I will be able to find a person who can help me keep you close to me.
I went home today to both pick some stuff up and see you as well. Mommy was mad at me again and wanted to tell me what to do. This is a big reason why our family has problems. Neither Mommy nor Daddy should ever demand the other to do anything, we should only ask nicely and make requests based on how we can help each other, and always with love. I am sorry to say that I am just as guilty as she is, but today didn't have to go down like this.
I found you sleeping today and I told Mommy that I was going to wake you up to spend time with you. When you saw me you were happy. You love me and said you wanted to go with Daddy.
I started to dress you and find some clothes but Mommy was mad that I messed up the drawers. She said some mean words and demanded that I fold the clothes, I am sorry, but this made me a little mad.
Hailey I promise I wasn't mad at you, and I didn't curse or do anything bad to Mommy. When we fight it gets ugly and she took you away from me. She got you dressed and I told her that I wanted to take you (for a little while). When Mommy stormed out the door and brought you to the new neighbor's house, I had no choice but to call the police.
I just wanted to be with you, but Mommy wouldn't have it. I ended up leaving without seeing you or saying goodbye. I'm sorry darling, it wasn't supposed to be like that.
I told Mommy that she isn't going to bring you to California and she is trying to do that. She says bad things about me and I hope not to you. If she does, don't ever believe them. I love you with all my heart.
I said this would get worse before it gets better, but I really wish you weren't caught in the middle. I love you and hope to see you again real soon!
Love,
Daddy
Wednesday, June 20, 2012
Day 2
Dear Hailey,
As I woke up this morning I was still thinking about you. I wanted to get home to see you, but when I got there you were sleeping. I love watching you sleep because you are so peaceful and so beautiful, but I don't want to wake you. Tonight I stopped by and Mommy had just laid you down again. I know I will see you soon. I want to spend the day together and have so much fun.
I am working a lot now. Mommy may not think so, but I am confident that someday my efforts will pay off and we can be happy. I want to give you everything you could ever want.
Mommy wants to take you away from me and move close to Grandma Cordray and Aunt Michelle. I know you love them but I also love you and I know you love me. I want you to know that I am fighting for you honey and will not let you go away.
Though I am busy and Mommy told you something different, I do love you and am heartbroken right now. Things are ugly in our family, but I promise they will get better and I will see you whenever I want and you want. This is my promise to you.
Have a wonderful night and I will see you soon.
Love,
Daddy
As I woke up this morning I was still thinking about you. I wanted to get home to see you, but when I got there you were sleeping. I love watching you sleep because you are so peaceful and so beautiful, but I don't want to wake you. Tonight I stopped by and Mommy had just laid you down again. I know I will see you soon. I want to spend the day together and have so much fun.
I am working a lot now. Mommy may not think so, but I am confident that someday my efforts will pay off and we can be happy. I want to give you everything you could ever want.
Mommy wants to take you away from me and move close to Grandma Cordray and Aunt Michelle. I know you love them but I also love you and I know you love me. I want you to know that I am fighting for you honey and will not let you go away.
Though I am busy and Mommy told you something different, I do love you and am heartbroken right now. Things are ugly in our family, but I promise they will get better and I will see you whenever I want and you want. This is my promise to you.
Have a wonderful night and I will see you soon.
Love,
Daddy
Tuesday, June 19, 2012
Daddy Loves You Hailey.
Dear Hailey,
Today was the first day that Mommy and I have officially separated. I left, but it was because it was too hard for me to face the fact that things haven't been working out. I need you to know always that I love you very much and NEVER wanted anything like this to happen. I have made mistakes as has your mother and sooner or later we are going to have to face the reality of those mistakes. I am not writing this to say anything bad about your mother because God knows she loves you very much and I know you love her. We are still married as of this post as we have been sealed for time and all eternity. I will never forget that and I pray that you do not either. You are sealed to me and sealed to your mother and whatever happens know this, God put you here because you are a special and wonderful little girl and have truly blessed my life.
Please don't judge me too harshly because I have always wanted to be there for you 100 percent. It is a little premature today to say what comes next, but as I write this blog on a daily basis you will know that I am always thinking of you. Everything I do is because I want you and need you in my life. If your mommy and I work things out it will be a miracle, but I know things are still going to get worse before they get better.
I have tried so hard to figure out where things went wrong, and short of blaming myself, or your mother I just want you to know up front and from day one -This was NOT your fault. I love you and you will always be in my heart.
Love, Daddy
Today was the first day that Mommy and I have officially separated. I left, but it was because it was too hard for me to face the fact that things haven't been working out. I need you to know always that I love you very much and NEVER wanted anything like this to happen. I have made mistakes as has your mother and sooner or later we are going to have to face the reality of those mistakes. I am not writing this to say anything bad about your mother because God knows she loves you very much and I know you love her. We are still married as of this post as we have been sealed for time and all eternity. I will never forget that and I pray that you do not either. You are sealed to me and sealed to your mother and whatever happens know this, God put you here because you are a special and wonderful little girl and have truly blessed my life.
Please don't judge me too harshly because I have always wanted to be there for you 100 percent. It is a little premature today to say what comes next, but as I write this blog on a daily basis you will know that I am always thinking of you. Everything I do is because I want you and need you in my life. If your mommy and I work things out it will be a miracle, but I know things are still going to get worse before they get better.
I have tried so hard to figure out where things went wrong, and short of blaming myself, or your mother I just want you to know up front and from day one -This was NOT your fault. I love you and you will always be in my heart.
Love, Daddy
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